I think there must be a lesson in this? How do I look at this well, to inform and help me to become a better yogi, a more engaged human being, in the service of others?
Because, as yogis and yoga teacher trainers, it seems to me this is the goal, as Simon Haas so eloquently outlines in his book, “Dharma, Making Enlightened Choices”.
So, the anger, where to go with that? The betrayal, what is that?
It seems sometimes as if the whole yoga world points towards passivity and acceptance and then I remember Ghandi and how he created a sea change in his country simply by quietly stating the injustice of a situation, no legal proceedings, no dramatic anger, just a gentle reminder of the injustice, and I trust all will be well and justice will be done.
IN order to foster trust between each other and in order to ensure justice, we need to be transparent and transparency goes hand in hand with honesty and trust. Recently, our retreat centre was shut down by the council. I had the task of calling the retreatees and telling them exactly what had happened and offering their money back. I was surprised at the support and the compassion this transparency engendered in these clients.
I know I can relax a little and let the situation play out and continue to deliver my best and be the best I can, which means more loving, more forgiving, more compassion. Breaking open the heart.
The image of the Christ’s bleeding heart comes to me and I understand on another level, the depth of vulnerability, suffering and pain and its connection with compassion and a full and good life of the transparent yogi.